Last week, when I began this series on centering, we took a brief look at what centering is. I posted a list "symptoms"to help you identify when you aren't centered, hoping to give you a broad stroke idea of what centering isn't. But centering is tricky. There are times when we"think" we can be fairly on target, but aren't or have missed the central point. Additionally, there are times when we are centered in how we feel, like say when we believe we are angry for all the right reasons, yet the solution seems elusive or is something we don't think we can accepts. This week I would like to take a little bit of a deeper dive into learning to become conscious of when we lose our center.
To date, the biggest centering lesson I have learned was to distinguish between my small physical world mind (ego) and my higher mind (Soul and Source). This first hand knowledge is what guides me back to center over and over again. Before my latest big shift in awakening, I thought I correctly perceived that all the thoughts that went though my mind were my own and were, at least, part of who I was. My thoughts were the result of my experiences and were hard won over life's challenges and growth spurts. I believed that the things spoken in anger had more truth to them than things said in love. And in that, I even believed myself to be centered. Possessing at a fairly steady emotional keel. I worked to keep that.
As I began to untangle what was higher mind and what wasn't, my beliefs radically changed. In just a post, such as this, it's hard to say what will drive this point home for you, gorgeous Soul. For it me took first fully (at least it felt that way at the time) coming to center to begin understanding the HUGE difference. Today I sit back and wonder how I could have ever believed that the Divine would want to punish me, shame me, kick me when I'm down, as I had done to myself when I thought every thought I had was some sort of Truth. The first time I understood that my guide, the angels, the Divine could not be harsher judges of myself, than myself, I wept for all the pain I had heaped upon my being. My own ideas (ego) of how broken I was kept me from Oneness with Divine and Creation.
All those little thoughts that occurred were ego's way of wrapping me so tightly in a cocoon of "safety" that couldn't let the truly good stuff in, the unconditional love. In that cocoon, though, I never felt safe. No matter how many precautions I took, how well I planned to overcome my worry or anxiety. Fear begets fear, it doesn't solve fear. No matter how well we think we are doing, if we are coming from a place of fear or avoidance of pain, we are not in center with our Divine Soul.
Our center, the seat of Soul, is a place of absolute love. Judgment does not exists there.Our center, the seat of Soul, is a place of absolute love. Judgment does not exists there. Click To Tweet
Thoughts, the daily emotions, worries, anxieties, through time and/or circumstance pass or recede. It's hard to hitch your wagon, plan your life, or make good choices from such a random place. Soul is constant, ever-present, and always observing things behind the scenes of the thoughts and emotions that run through us. Coming to center is learning to identify "self" as that ever-present observer. The whisper or nudge behind that daily drama. That is your truest self, and the true center of your being.
The voice of Soul will never call you fat, a loser, ugly, worthless, a screw up, broken...whatever nasty ass thing ego can come up with. The voice of Soul will show you how to give yourself the love that you need, so that you can more fully come to center.
What, my dearest Souls, are you willing to stop believing about yourself, so that you can come more fully to center??? Let me know in the comments!